And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
(Source: dinhtheresa, via mollyollyoxenfreeeee)
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I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.
(Source: anntrannn, via mollyollyoxenfreeeee)
You called me a bitch for no reason. What did I ever do? All I said was hi, and you were like yeah what you want! And said a bunch of stuff and then said you wanted to have a good/fun day so you aren’t listening and called me a bitch. What did I do to you? I didn’t do anything… thats the weird part. And i just can’t get over it. Words hurt, and what you said can never be forgotten… I can forgive.. but i won’t forget. And look you still havent texted me or anything. Like seriously? Bi-polar… or what?
(Source: i-m-o-n-l-y-h-u-m-a-n)
I’m confused. I don’t know how to deal with this pain anymore. its just lingering on… never wanting to come out. Im wishing for you to be my Prince Charming. I’m hoping one day you will be the guy of my dreams. I’m wishing on stars for you to be my hero. I’m praying everyday for you to be a better person. I’m trying so hard. I’m letting my heart open. I’m becoming vulnerable. I’m sharing my feelings with you. I’m showing my emotions from tears to joy. I’m showing you how much you mean to me with a little kiss. I cuddle with you, just to show how much I want to be next to you. I tell you how it is when I feel like you said something that was wrong. I love you so much. I care about you so deeply. All I want is the best for you. All I want you to be is the best. It hurts me when I see that your hurt. But what hurts me more is you leaving pain in my eyes… not even realizing you left a river in my eyes. What really hurts though is that you don’t even care.. that it feels like you don’t even want to try. You call me names. You say I’m a bitch. You say im a sour puss. You say how I’m not good enough. You tell my how stupid I am. And yet everything you say, you say you are kidding. But to me, you sound pretty serious. You mentally and emotionally drain me. You are an abuser without you even knowing, or care to know. I feel like you feel that im worthless or unimportant. I know what you are trying to do. You are saying unkind words just to make yourself feel or look better. Because honestly you know how good/ better I am and it kills you. That I’m smart, sweet, nice, and pretty, and I have things going good in my life. I’m going to go to college, I don’t do anything thats entirly bad, Im a pretty good person. And honestly I think I am too good for you. I’m a higher standard, in your case. If i was an outsider in my own world, you would be a downgrade to me. You aren’t going anywhere in life. You don’t have the maturity to be a man. You have angermangement, and honestly, I think you are crazy, and I believe you are bi-polar. You are the total opposite of me, that just won’t mix together. I just hate how things are going. I hate how much I love you. Because all you are doing is hurting me. And I dont even think you realize it. I try everything. I try to do anything to make you happy. But honestly, I have to make myself happy before I can make anyone else happy. And I believe, honestly believe, you aren’t making me happy. I believe you are just making me self pity. I believe you are making me seem like im not good enough for anyone. I don’t tell you how terrible you are. I don’t tell you how you should do things in life. I don’t degrade you. I don’t do anything. Should I tell you how horrible you are? Will that make you feel better? Because it doesnt make me feel any better. I just I can’t do it. I can’t do this. I can’t do me and you. We aren’t clicking. We aren’t good for eachother. And to be honest, you aren’t good for anyone right now. You shouldn’t be in a relationship until you are actually ready to be in on. Until you find yourself and who you are. Until you actually use your meds and are clear minded. I don’t think a relationship is best for you right now. I know you will take this the wrong way, but I’m only being a friend right now. If I didn’t have feelings for you, I would tell you something from a different perspective. That’s why Im just being an outsider right now, thinking in. And I know I should break up with you. I know you aren’t good for me. I just I don’t what to do. I don’t want you to hurt me. I don’t want to be vulnerable. I don’t want to have an open heart. I just don’t. no.no.no.no.no.no.NO!
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still not sure..
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(Source: forevercrazyaboutyou)
(Source: derrick1981)
(Source: wwelcomeetomyylifee)
